well, it has been a very long time since i posted.
and yes, i am back to blogging in english.
why?
because i just simply feel that it is quite troublesome to blog in chinese and many a times it screws the html up.

it is coming to the end of the fifth month of the year, and i have gotten back my results.
i can't say that i am unhappy yet, of course, there is always room for improvement.
so, JIAYOU jiale.
i can do it =]

well, i talked with joyce and wei'en yesterday and today after band at the bpp.
x)
thanks!

there are a lot of things happening and i do have a lot of opinions of them.
yet, i simply have no energy to post them up here.
there are times i lie on my bed, pondering on what are happening, yet i do not feel like posting them.
therefore i didn't post for such a long time.

sorry !

i am sick of tired of certain issues, but i can't say , " HEY ! GO AWAY !".
i still have to think of them and find a way to solve it.

then, i began to feel that though people may contribute a lot, whatever they get back in return may be little compared to others who did less.
and, some may fight a lot for some things he or she wants, yet, because of what people have in mind, and a sudden twist of fate, they lost it; while some other people who just didn't care for that thing, got it for some idiotic reasons.

i do get exasperated, i do get despaired.
you reap what you sow.
yea? is that true?
i beg to differ.
sometimes, what i want ain't recognition, what i want ain't what you think.
this may sound real materialistic, but hey! can i be selfish and self-centered too?

i am doing a lot, i can say that without any shame.
as in, compared to some others, i am doing a lot.
yet, what do i get?
nothing.
life's real unfair at times.
yet, i can't do anything about it.

actually, i was thinking.
is a nerd more blessed that a socializer?
at the very least, a nerd is working with books--no emotions at all.
lame thinking.

never mind.

i should be contented, but i am not.
help.